Taking chances

I was thinking this morning of a few things; 1) Will anyone look at my blog? 2) I wonder when the movie August Rush will come back on again. 3)I want the movie An American in Paris on dvd for my birthday.
It was very cool that the movie August Rush was on this morning, so I am watching and listening to it now. Unfortunately, no one look at my blogs but I won't give up yet. This blog is about being yourself and yes I have two blogs. It was an accident but now I will just make them both work. I thought about my father this morning, thinking about bow much I miss him. I wonder if he is proud of me. I took a huge chance this year. I got layed off of work twice and I took it in stride. Each time I went to work, it kill my creative child inside. I was punchy because I was creating and losing works of art in my brain. I couldn't find real time to create and when I did, it seemed I was always trying to do alot in a small amount of time. Even though, I was producing good stuff it could have been better and more if I found the time. So, whenever I went back to work, a voice inside kept saying, "The time focus on you." I didn't listen and when I got layed off again, the voice repeated the same thing. It wasn't until the third time that I decided to listen and I have been so scared. I am painting, creating wearable art, writing my books and nothing has really become of it but, I'm happy. I'm not afraid to face the critics, even though I know they maybe brutal but a true artist never let's go of there dream. In the background I am listening to the final song in the August Rush movie and it brings tears to my eyes because the average person doesn't know what it means to live and breathe your natural gift. To be true to yourself when everyone around you thinks you're mad for giving up your job that was slowly killing you inside. The mechanics in the work place is to churn work out and not care about the little guy that is giving up their dreams to make the grade. For so long many people look at what I do as a hobby. It's not a hobby, it's who I am. They say a real artist does their work for themself, that to be validated. That is why so many of us are on the street corner or open fairs trying to get a leg up. What should it cost a person to be true to themself?

Following your dreams

How many people hesitate in doing what they love. We are raised to believe we can do whatever we want to. Many of us set out to do just that until life gets in the way. I believe there are many people out there in the world unhappy because they didn't follow their dreams. I am an artist by trade and it is a natural talent I have. I recently decided to focus on my craft of art. There is a reason why they call us starving artist. It is because we starve to practice our craft and follow our dream. It is an expensive gift to have and you have to do it because you love it. I know when I am not creating or when outside work becomes priority, I die inside a slow death. It seems more and more people are taking the chance to start their own business. It is labeled, reinventing yourself. Since I started focusing on my craft, I can't say it has been fruitful but i can't stop creating. I wonder if we could start a whole new Bohemian movement. An American in Paris is my favorite all time movie. It is an artist and fashionistas dream movie. I have always been surprised it has never been recreated on Broadway. The artist movement in Paris in the late 18 hundreds thru the 1940's or 1950's was a great time for artist. The life of the city was free and romantic. So many artist, writers and musicians from the states were drawn to Paris for that reason and it still gives off that aura. When I decided to follow my dreams and take a chance, I came up with the idea of reproducing my art on an Eco-friendly tote bag as an advertising technique. Some may say it is not original but it has to start somewhere.
Let's open up dialog. What are your thoughts?